Today I voted for the first time??! Very very chaotic experience. It was ridiculously badly organized. I voted very left. After that we ate well and went to bxl. Shino was really stressed and it made me stressed too and because of me we took the wrong tram two times and it turned out in quite an angry fight but it is weird because my anger in those. Moments feels very superficial, it is an enotion i never really experienced before. In bxl with mark and zeger (later also rachel and seba) it was cosy but i was a lot in my own head and feeling insecure as well it was only later in the evening that i managed to relax a bit. Im really paranoid about the whole situation w mark and rachel still (i did shortly talk to her today and it was very warm and understanding which is really good.) and i also have some kind of weird brussels fomo still. As if by moving to rotterdam im going to miss a lot and we will grow so much farther appart or something. In the end it ended up being a really cosy evening. Noah also showed up but he practically ignored us and we him.