I did NOT feel like making anything to put on here today but pushed myself nonetheless and this is what came out. I do not like it so much but it does hypnotise me. but it did not feel fresh to make.

Today I woke up at zegers place and ate with him and went home. I am still processing the things that were being said the day before. At home I did very little of note, practical things. It was another boring day to be honest. But boredom has its charm. I do feel more anxiety sticking up its head in the space of boredom. Random worries about shino, about the future, about Daria too sometimes. and I dont like these thoughts. I wish i could contorl my mind and impulses better but then I would fully become a robot instead of the cyborg that I am now. I really don’t understand my parents, they seem like full robots to me. Maybe that is why I make these videos and write these texts to convince myself I am not one haha. im not feeling very inspired. i guess its ok