Nothing

I did not write anything on this day. I write this one day later. I did nothing of note except call shino. She told me about her amazing nyc adventures. It kind of gives me fomo. She also said she did something with a guy there that she will see again. since things are open for the time being it is ok for me but ofcourse this does give me a slight sense of anxiety sometimes. I try to see it as an opportunity of letting go of this anxiety bc I do really trust things will go well when we are back together. And being able to let go of this could take being together to a next level I think. Having said this, in the evening Daria texted me and we got to texting quite a long time. She really got into my heart again and I feel kind of torn about talking to her. It is really sensitive and beautiful conversation and it kind of confuses me in some moments. I really like her and want her to like me but I should not care about this. We both said we don’t want to make a mess, I won’t but it just adds to a strange feeling of disorientation because it makes me less anxious about shino but more about myself which is also something I dont want. Strange days haha. Im doing ok tough.