This is a video I made almost 3 months ago but i just post it now, it is also relevant.

I have a hard time being consistent on the blog these days. I don’t know why, but I really do not have the impulse. Perpetually overwhelmed in a rather pleasant way. Not overwhelmed by pleasantries but very aware of being on the brink of things being too much and taking relatively good care of myself.

Having a job is not so nice but it does give life a certain rythm and reassurance. That is nice. X also came to visit for a few days, she left three days ago. It was really beautiful and vulnerable. I just feel so close to her in a way that I do with nobody else. We took a bath together and massaged each others head, an incredible experience. Our situation remains a very strange one. I am managing my relation to this situation quite well, but its strangeness does not escape me. Now Mark is staying here. Yesterday we went to the new mag launch of Bog Bodies (8th edition) and met up with Marlie and Benjamin there. It was a really beautiful evening and I met a lot of new people, something that is hard to squeeze into my time here in Bxl where it is already so hard to meet all the people i already know. Lillou and Rei randomly invited me to come speak with everyone listening and i got really embarrassed hahaha. Today Mark, nana and me tried on a bunch of his clothing and had a slow morning before going ‘forest bathing’ in Bois de la cambre. A very profound reminder of the importance of taking time to be in nature, even if it is just about taking time. Then went to beursschouwburg to see internetcinema by open secret and missed it by an hour, but in time for the talk afterwards. It was an interesting discussion, equally interesting to observe in what way this discussion is held and how the different parties identify with it. Now chilling at home. Tomorrow work again DAMN