Im listening to a whole bunch of crazy Fela Kuti tunes right now, he was a visionairy on a really high level. Today I just did practical things mostly. Going trough the motions but being really aware at the same time. I feel my mind is really awake in these days. Partly because of reading the book by jenny odel (how to do nothing). I was reminded very acutely of ‘the third option’, the ‘I would prefer not to’. Yes or no fall in line with the choices you are given and how the system operates. The thrid option is saying something inbetween, or something completely different still. Im thinking about this show in Maison des arts in september. I know the whole is going to be so fucking boring and I need to find a ‘third option’ I think. All of a sudden it feels like there is a lot on the line. I should nurture this sense of care and possiblility for risk. I would like to talk to daria again but I will not. Mostly I can let it go pretty ok in the past days but not always :).