The very first minute of this day I was sitting in a house in Rotterdam Noord surrounded by some new friends drinking wine. Twenty-four hours before that I was also with these new friends at a party (at roodkapje) where I was getting to know other people too. inbetween those two late nights, I saw Margot, we ate, drank cofee and went to de zolder and hung out there. I also had to work both days. I am really happy that I get to know these people. The tragedy of it is that Fionulla is moving to germany in two weeks and Puck is living in Belgium so they will both be far away. Yesterday Fionulla pulled out a cupping set at some point and me, Simon and puck laid down and got ”cupped”. It was kind of painful but this song was playing and when settling into it, it felt really good. I held hands with Fionulla that was wearing a shirt that said ‘love couscous’ in the typical coca cola font. It felt really intimate, caring and special.

X is away to NYC and I miss her. Simultaneously it feels kind of exciting. It feels like this city still has a lot to offer me and being part of a little friend group like this reinforces that feeling. Since she has been gone I have been doing a lot of effort to see people and so far I feel like there has been a kind of momentum in this. I like this a lot. I feel a very strong need to make intimate friendships here, i am very hungry for it (by lack of a better term). This moment of holding the hands for example, means a lot to me.