Wentt to roffa over the weekend, mostly to see X. But also my dear friends in this picture. We ate pancakes together. It is hard to write about how things are. I dont want to say too much. For now some things belong to the past, and it is hard for me to accept that even tough it is my responsibility to. I desperately want to be on the side of love. I write it to remind myself. I would really like to give myself fully, but despite it being easy to convince yourself otherwise, that is a desire that is mine more then anybody elses. I will keep it at that. It was an intense weekend that was painful, touching, fun but not as careless or in some ways intense as i wanted it to be. And that is for a good reason. I also saw Daniel today, he struggles but is so himself. I was happy to see him before he leaves again for a long time. Much love to him ♥