Today I had my final presentation for the residency. I was quite nervous but at the same time very relaxed, since I did all the work already. Im super tired so sorry if I write poorly. I woke up, set up my trip to France in ten days and went aboutt my nnormal routine. I then went to a cafe and spent some time thinking about what to say and how to say it. I was nervous about how many ppl would show up. I came well in time to the office and prepared everything well in advance with aleksandr. The ppl from the ABA team seemed happy. I am quite proud of the video work I showed . We had a really productive conversation afte rI showed it and I was really content with the turnout, not too much, not too little. Some of us stayed until 21h talking about things, drinking and eating. Then I called my sister because it is her birthday. She was on drugs partying but doing good haha. After a call with her I called mark and we talked for a loooong time about what is up with our lives. THen I cleaned and went home and ate.I am feeling electric. The residency is kind of over. I have nothing I HAVE to do here anymore. I gave It all I could . Its hard to put into words. Extatic and lonely. I want somebody to hold me, and I want to hold somebody. At the same time I’m so happy I made somethign Im proud of and that is just me. Nobody else. I suprised myself in a fundamenta l and meaningful wayand I was up to the task that I set out for myself in this residency. It is beautiful. And yet i miss the presence of a person I love I guess. It is strange, I look forward to these last days, no obligations and just existing here. Very tired, goodnight.