Everything done badly is sincere ?

Today I woke up late and worked a bit, before having a bit of a discussion about the summerplans (i want to visit friends in italy but I dont want her to tag along all the way) me and shino drove to the fish store and I was really scared because shino drives REALLY bad. There was a big dinner with many friends and I saw daniel for the first time in many many months. It was super nice to see him again, he hasnt changed much. The evening was really cosy and nice. All of a sudden the ones left were talking about going to new york because someone shino knows sublets an appartement there and now it seems they are going to new york. If i dont have anything to do it doesn’t interest me that much and I don’t have the money for it. I feel a bit mixed about it. I dont think it is neccesarily what shino needs but she will probably enjoy it, I sometimes feel like she has a romantic movie image of going there and also wants to act out some kind of new york fantasy character while there. I hope it does not get in the way of the two of us. Anyhow, Im still warming up to Rotterdam, im looking kind of forward to living here.