I LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH AND THEY LOVE ME BACK SO MUCH

Today I woke up at my parents home and worked in the garden while listening to the podcast Mark recommended me yesterday. It was really interesting and inspiring but it did discomfort me in a strange way. Maybe I was struggling to understand how I was relating to this gaia-earth theory and to these two men talking about it. Very interesting in any case. I worked until lunch and afterwards I worked to document and write about the works I made at VARES in the past week. It took quite a long time and then I went to buy a charger bc I forgot my phone cable at Marks place. When I came back I started working on the Maumaus application. I had a 20-min call with shino before she had to leave, I am really not enjoying talking to her these last times. I guess sometimes i am a little bit anxious about what she is going to say. But more then that she only talks about herself and I can feel that she does not care at all what is going on with me. And then she also complains about comnig back and it is something that bothers me a bit. I made some travels and met so many new people and it gives me so much energy and appreciation, she seems mainly to be anxious about ‘losing’ these friendships and wants to go back there asap and is caught up in this kind of forced and impatient way of thinking that really bothers me in this moment. It seems so negatively framed. But right now it is a matter of waiting also, we havent seen each other in a long long time. I am feeling quite changed since the last time we saw each other. In the evening I continued working on the application and then Vale called. It had been a long time since we spoke and it was really fun to speak and I just really like who she is and am so happy she is my friend. Also Laura texted me this morning to ask if I wanted to hang out bc she is in brussels, we organised a sleepover at her moms place on thursday now :). I am feeling so surrounded by friends and I love them all so much.