Obviously it has been a long time since I wrote. More than two weeks ago. I knew I was going to lose track sooner or later. I also realised it has no sense to lock myself in a position where I am writing every day on this. Life is more important. It is only two weeks ago that I last wrote but many things have happened since then. Zeger did his jury and it was really really good. The graduation happened last weekend and we partied really fun. The week before that we also partied in Brussels after I fasted for 18ish hours and the next morning after sleeping at Marks place with him and Leon I had to throw up four times because i was so nauseous. Me and shino also heard we are selected for ‘art contest’. This means we will do a show in september in ‘maison des arts’. This is super nice and really exciting. The day before yesterday I hung out with Enrico for a long time (he was in town) and shino and me went to out to Margo and Senne to eat. It was a really good time. Troughout . this time I had been struggling with shino a little bit. I was often feeling a bit closed in and we were not really spending time on each other. We have done very little of this since starting to live together and it came to a bit of a boiling point for shino, especially now that school is over and she had nothing else to do. After this we decided to pay more attention to each other and actually ‘plan’ a day to spend time together. That day was today and it was really really nice. In the past days we have been paying more attention to each other and it feels really good and all of a sudden things are a lot more alive between us. Im very happy this is happening before we leave later this vacation. I am also continuing to get many rejection letters for residencies, right now it kind of weighs on me and I am kind of reconsidering how to live my life in the coming future. I always considered these residencies the next step but now I see that is not so evident. I am in fact very young and quite a beginner. It is also good to be reminded of this.