It has been a while since I posted on the blog. After coming back from Poland I took a lot of time to get back into Berlin, with a different attitude. I feel a lot les pressure to be ‘in the city’ with this anxiety to make the most out of it. I have been much more capable of enjoying the time and resources I have here to create. I have spent a lot of time with june these days and before that X was here. My fears from before turned out to be unfounded. When there is love it is just that simple, and I suspect that will not change anytime soon. It was so incredibly nurturing and touching to spend time with her. I will not elaborate too much however, I will post a video later that will say enough :-). The time with X has given me even more peace and energy to just create things in this time. I am beginning to understand that in times of intense creation like this, I really just want to have someone close and intimate, to be deep. And when I am in a time of discovery and intake, I prefer to be all over, to be broad. It is a strange thing to realise because the way I engage in romantic relationships do not lend themselves well to this kind of life. I miss X now that she is gone, but it is a product of the way I choose to live my life. So I will carry that and focus on creation for now. I have been drawing a lot. Above you see one of the recent drawings. Margot was also here in the past days. It was nice to spend time with her even tough my head was not really all there. Yesterday we saw a great movie in the cinema ‘El Mariachi’ directed by a guy who was as old as me now when he directed it. In the morning we hung out with lilla (always nice) and in the evening we went to an event in Schinkel pavilion, it was a screening of a 3d animated video work that was profound and superficial at the same time. Afterwards Margot left and Nellie and me went to a billiard cafe and talked for a really long time. It was very nice.