Today I woke up from one of the gruesome dreams I ever had in my life, it was some kind of torture orgy to which I was a witness. I remember one person with a full body condom being enthousiastically and fully inserted into another man (head first in ass) that was tied down . resulting in a truly revolting, bloody and drawn out scene. I sometimes have this kind of extremely bloody, gruesome dreams. once in the month or so. I dont think too much about it, I believe it is fairly normal to have this kind of thing floating around in your unconcious. Having it float to the surface maybe less so but I welcome it as an unenjoyable observation that horrifies and disgusts me. An unspectacular day to day. got ready, went to nieuwe instituut, talked a while with a girl there, studied japanese, went back home, made this video, called shino, went to work, came back, ate, called zeger and finished this video. very unspectacular but still nice. Shino is sick since yesterday and has nothing to do but lay in bed. She is really cute and vulnerable in this state, super endearing and she appreciates me a lot. I love her.
I do get the sense that things are moving quite slow, I feel I want to be more productive.